Hello Rebel Souls,

The past few weeks have been incredibly challenging for me. My Functional Neurological Disorder (FND) symptoms have flared up, leaving me feeling defeated. Between the nausea, pain, and fatigue, it feels like my life has come to a screeching halt just when I thought I was finally getting back on track. I wasn’t at 100%, but I was enjoying working on my novel and the publishing process. I felt inspired and motivated to dive into Rebel Soul and the exciting things I have planned. But, my body has reminded me that it can’t sustain the lifestyle I lived before FND and I needed to stop and rest.

With the physical symptoms came the emotional turmoil. Guilt washed over me as I berated myself for being “useless” and unable to meet the deadlines I had set. My mental health took a nosedive, dragging my healthy eating habits, motivation, and creativity down with it. Despite having all the tools to cope, I’m not immune to depression, anxiety, and just plain bad days. I’m human, and sometimes the symptoms and the list of things I can’t do pile up so high I don’t know how to pull myself out from under their weight. But I do.

I allow myself to feel the emotions and give myself permission to have a bad day. Then, I remind myself of the good things in my life. I might not be able to complete things in the same timelines as I used to, but I will continue trying. Some days, that might look like just taking my daughter to school. Other days, it might mean getting a load of washing done and working on Rebel Soul. No matter what, I will keep showing up.

For all of you who might be feeling overwhelmed, defeated, or just plain exhausted, remember that it’s okay to have those days. Give yourself permission to feel, to grieve, and to rest. But also remind yourself of the strength you possess. You are not defined by your setbacks but by how you rise from them.

Here are a few things that help me find my way back:

1. Acknowledge Your Feelings: It’s okay to feel frustrated, sad, or angry. Acknowledge these emotions instead of suppressing them. Give yourself the space to experience and process them.
2. Take Small Steps: Even the smallest steps forward are still steps in the right direction. Whether it’s making your bed, taking a walk, or writing a few sentences, every little bit counts.
3. Focus on What You Can Control: There are many things out of our control, but focusing on what we can control helps us feel more empowered. Set small, achievable goals and celebrate each accomplishment, no matter how minor it might seem.
4. Lean on Your Support System: Reach out to friends, family, or support groups. Sharing your struggles with others who understand can provide comfort and encouragement.
5. Practice Self-Compassion: Be gentle with yourself. Treat yourself with the same kindness and understanding that you would offer a friend going through a tough time.

Remember, rediscovering yourself and reclaiming your life is a journey, not a destination. There will be ups and downs, but each step you take is a testament to your resilience and strength. Keep showing up, keep pushing forward, and never forget that you are not alone on this journey.

Be kind to yourself,
Linda